Friday, March 23, 2007

Wondering -

There is a constant fight that always goes on between logic and emotions, between reason and religion, between the heart and the brain and plethora other yin-yang forces... Yin - the bright optimistic subjective side and yang - the factual, cold and pessimistic side... What I am wondering is when do I know which force am I supposed to listen to? And even if I do decide on one force, how do I know it is correct?

Logic tells me that India's chances of winning the world cup are slim but faith (or rather blind faith) makes me watch each match with enthusiasm... On the other hand, my heart tells me to take a bike and go to Goa but brain tells me that the idea is not only weird but also not viable....

If there is something I desperately want or someone I desperately want to be with and the odds are not in favour of that taking place, what will I do? Will I still hold on to the thing/person based on only subjective parameters which I want to believe in (and want them to be true under any circumstances) or should I just take statistics into account and forget all about it? One- is this easy and Two - is this correct?

Thus, comes a conundrum which I am faced with time and again. When do I listen to something that cannot be substantiated and lacks substance and when do I go to facts and let them have the final word??? And what happens if I listen to the one I am not supposed to and end up making a huge mistake or just raising my hopes in vain which would then lead to a crash....

At this point in time, I am unsure of my very purpose in life, my future and my goals... I am confused as to what and where I would be like in 5 years down the line.... This uncertainty makes me want to predict my future - something that I believe is basic human nature.... But I have had so many predictions by now that I am as lost as I was at the start of the exercise...
Therefore all I can say is, I have finally succumbed to the inevitable forces of fate and destiny....

A sane person with a perfectly logical POV and rationality has just decided to leave some of my very critical decisions to abstract parameters... to fate, God, destiny etc when I have the power to shape up my own... Am I imbeccile then??? But all I know at this point in my life is that, no facts and rationales can later on answer or explain the vagaries these uncontrollable factors enforce on your life...

Is this the right thing to do - I do not know - I am still wondering!!!

6 comments:

Viraj Datar said...

Since you mentioned cricket, then here's a thought: In life as in Cricket, you practice and learn and take painstaking efforts to hit the ball in the right spot with the best force, but whether its a six or a catch, now that's up to "fate". :)

Don't worry, nobody has full control over every aspect of their life. If we had that, we wouldn't need God isn't it? :)

Nice article.

unpredictable said...

Hi bacchi, i didnt realize so much was going on in tht little head of urs :) Sounds crazy but i just wrote a blog that is eerily similar to this, perhaps darker ... take care ... shud talk on phone soon .. love ya

Amit said...

Ever heard of the phrase 'caught in two minds'? GOD doesn't want you to know which one is right. If every individual knew what was right beforehand, life as we know wouldn't exist.

Chintan said...
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Chintan said...

Most of us are supposed to get mature as we grow old... But then this is the phase of life when one follows dreams and works tirelessly to reach the goals. While doing so many of us forget about enjoying whatever we do and then work becomes a pain… But at times I feel, weren't we more mature as child with the sole purpose of enjoying each and every thing we did? And now if we feel happy with whatever small effort we do than isn’t that a success in itself. So better be a child and keep njoying whatever you do and do only what u njoy doing… And may be these turns out to be a stepping stone in achieving some distant goal….

Push. said...

why r u so worried abt the 5 years down the line...
if u think abt obly these 5 years ...prbblly u will always end up calculatig urself 5years down the line only...
go n think which way suited u most....